Life is empty without the people you love...

Why do we lose people who are dear to us? Is it a thing called fate or is it something much more beyond our understanding? I've lost a very important person in my life. With her gone, a piece of me is gone. Days don't seem as bright. The past is always closer. The future seems sooner than expected. Colors of simply being, fade into one. Time is supposed to heal all wounds, but thats just a fairytale. Time makes a person forgot-- move on. But you never forget. The memory stays strong. There hasn't been a day thats gone by, where I haven't thought of this person. Everywhere I go my mind wanders. Sometimes I'm quiet, and I appear to be smiling but its all just a false facade. These moments make me sad, make me happy, make me feel guilty. I wish I could of done something...anything. I know its impossible and I wouldnt want her to be back here when shes in such a wonderful place. I dont want her to feel sad, or regret on my behalf. But I cant but help feel sad. I think I always will, but I can never up. I hope she's watching me, guiding me, guarding me. I believe she is and always will. I will always think of her. I will never forget. I just want to let her know that she impacted my life so very much. She's an inspiration and an angel. I just wish I could tell the world how much I admire and love you grandma.